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About
I am a survivor of just about everything and I would like to dedicate this journey of recovery to a very special lady I'm going to call Angel, she is a volunteer professional counsellor of Survive, which is a charitable organisation dealing with victims of mental, physical and spiritual suffering caused by all types of abuse.
For months on end Angel gave her time freely to help me understand what happened, why I allowed it to happen, why someone needed to do these things in the first place and how to heal from the traumas it left behind. Like scars on my life that just kept weeping and wouldn't heal. Ten years passed and I was no further along the road. I was treading a deep dark journey in a deep dark place. Held together with drugs, sheer grit and determination not to give up and love between my children and I.
I was very blessed for Angel to have come into my life and hold my hand through my journey of recovery, without her goodness knows where I would be. I certainly wouldn't be here writing this bio.
My aim is; it's giving back in the only way I know how, and can afford, because I can not put a value on the changes in my life. I want to repay by helping as many people as I can through similar traumas, give information they may find helpful and in the process hopefully be able to afford to donate to the future of Survive. If I had to put a price on what I feel I owe Survive, it would be millions, you can not put a price on regaining your life.
My journey is not over, but I feel I have closed doors on all my past life experiences. I feel like I've never felt before, totally alive and ready for the next chapter of my life which starts here and now.
I have the skills to keep moving forwards and Angel has moved on to people who need her more than I do now. I can still reach out if I feel i'm falling, but I am wearing my big girl spiked boots to stop me slipping backwards, digging in with every positive step now hoping to make a mark on the world. Helping everyone that wants to engage, will give me purpose to continue in my quest to not only help, but possibly save lives along the way, as my Angel saved mine.
Mission
No i'm not giving professional qualified help, I wouldn't dream of even trying and perhaps this site will only be a stepping stone for most, showing you that no matter how dark, or how bad your journey gets, you too can survive, and in the words of Gloria Gaynor; "I will survive" and I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, I can see it now. You may not be able to see it just yet, but it is just around the corner, and with guidance you will. I may just be showing you a map of where to go and pointing you down the right path. Sometimes reading other peoples experiences make you realise you are not alone. They say the best counsellors are those who have experienced trauma themselves and not just read about it. I am sure that I lived through my life experiences for some reason. Lets make them count for something, I will tell you about techniques I was taught and which helped me to walk into the light again with my head held high and a positive view of tomorrow.
Vision
My vision is a better life for people who are suffering.
We all suffer more in our own minds than we do in reality. There is always help available and people that care. You are not alone in you fight.
If I don't know the answer I will find it out. If I can help you I will. if you need to vent then do so, I will support you every step of the way. Sometimes people live in isolated places where they have access to the internet, but not to physical help or maybe the financial means to get help.
So many people male and female suffer with mental health and abuse. The National Health Service fails them, time and again as it did with me.
My vision is fuelled by the fact, I would get an assessment and get offered a small number of sessions, all too few to do a proper job of healing, so you just slide backwards again and again over and over down that slippery slope. The problem is that every time you slide backwards, you go that little bit further down the hill. You feel less able to cope and more like the world is unable to fix you. I want this to become a strong network of help and healing, along with pointers to professionals when you are ready. Many people need to build strength before asking for help. They say it takes a village to leave an abusive relationship. Let us be your village and guide you away from danger and depression and into a strong person with a bright future..
